I really hope he’s okay.

blanderson-life:

I can’t…

I can’t talk about this anymore tonight. 

I need to nurse my heart and my pride and whatever else you’ve managed to break. 

I’ll…talk to you tomorrow. I need space.

Just…dammit, Kurt.

I don’t know what to say other than I’m sorry and that I love you and I’d change it if I could.

blanderson-life:

I’m a little busy trying to get the tears under control to be angry with you. I’m more angry with myself, Kurt. God damn it, I can’t even…I can’t even break up with you like most people probably would because I can’t imagine life without a future with you. But…you cheated on me..that’s…four? Five times? I…can’t…

How am I supposed to trust you? How the fuck am I supposed to trust you at all? It doesn’t matter that it wasn’t “for Sebastian.” Fucking ANYONE else isn’t okay. It’s. Not. Okay. 

So.

I suppose this is what’s going to happen.

I’m not going to trust you. I can’t. Not for a long while. I’m taking you far away from both of them, come Fall. You will never make me feel so betrayed…never again. You tell me everything. And I’m sleeping alone for now because I’m upset with you. 

Why…why did you do it, Kurt? Why?

I know it’s not okay, but it’s no reason to put me on some kind of lock down. I understand that you feel betrayed but stripping me of my privacy and hoping for the day I’m at least ten hours from people (or a person) I’ve grown to feel close to isn’t the way to deal with it.

I… don’t know why. It’s the only answer I have so you’re going to have to be okay with it. At least for now.

But if you want me to tell you ‘everything,’ I will. The only piece you’re missing still is when Jude and I… were together… in the back seat of my Navigator? It was before this whole threesome thing, but as long as you’re searching for stories… there you have it.

blanderson-life:

You have singlehandedly destroyed the one thing. The. One. Thing. I have in my life that was ever really worth a damn. I wish you could just learn to…just…keep your goddamned hands off of what isn’t. YOURS.

Destroyed?

hey-x-jude:

I’m sorry your fiance rather put his cock inside me than be faithful to you?

You’re really not helping, Judas…

blanderson-life:

I don’t want you to “make this up to me.” I want it to have never happened. Do you understand how much I love you? Do you understand how much of a stab in the chest it is to find out that after you PROMISED, REPEATEDLY, that nothing was happening, you’d gone behind my back to be with BOTH of them at the same time? I can’t…I can’t breathe. I can’t…collect my thoughts.

And it hurts worse, because I can’t even find it in myself to be angry with you because I love you so much. I’m just…heartbroken.

I wish I could go back and change it, but the sad truth is that I can’t. I can’t change it, I can’t make you forget about it and I can’t deny that it happened any longer. I hate hurting you and I’ll never be able to apologize enough for what I’ve done. I would get technical and say that it wasn’t for Sebastian, but for Jude because Sebastian and I had nothing to do with each other save for both of us being there, but I’m not looking to get into a huge discussion about it. I really am sorry, Blaine and it’ll never, ever happen again. You have every right to be angry with me, I’d almost prefer it to you being heartbroken. So, please, be angry. Get mad. Whatever will make you feel better.